I wish someone would understand, but I know no one ever will... It's so hard to explain what I feel. You see a happy girl but at the inside she is dying of shit. It's so hard because no one see the problem, at the outside it looks like a normal life, nothing special.. There is things no one ever could understand or they will never even hear about the things. There is so much that I don't know how I coul stand it. Nothing will come out of this text but I just need to write them somewere, you don´t need to ask because I don't know the answer! Sometimes I just want to get far away were I just don't need to be a good daughter, girlfriend, friend or whatever, were I could live without all the expectations and claims, were I don't need to try do my best all the time when I just get down because nothing is enough. Whatever I do there is always something I could change or something I could do better, I will never be the perfect one you guys want because that is impossible, I'm just an human...

There was a person who was the strongest I ever known, That fight and never gave up. Whatever it was she could beat it. She was the one I always looked up to and I always wanted to be like her, she was my hero. She show me how strong a person can be and you just need to belive in yourself. She will always be my hero and I will always try to be like her, she had a perfect life. When she dissapear my life fell apart but I try to be strong like her and fight the sadness, that would be the thing she wanted me to do.

Just my thoughts...